Lord, do you see me here?
Am I left to die in this place?
Please hear my cry
Will I see a day
When I don’t look back
Or sink back to the bottom?
The lows are so low
And the highs?
Well they are merely not the lows
Will I finish this race?
I can barely make it a day,
A week
A month
How will I ever make it to the end?
The descent has been unbearable
What is next?
The painful decline from unbearable to…
The heart is restless
And clenches for what is to come
With dread for what may vary well arise
Doubt engulfs every thought
The heart screams
Yet not even a whisper can be heard
The temptation of the blade
Comes knocking
Thumbs finger the gate towards shame
With fate resting on the sharp edge
Will I see tomorrow?
Will I wake to these scars
And hide them from foreign eyes
Only to wish I could unsee them?
Lord do you see me here
I am far too weak
And about to break
Can you stop me from myself
And what I am about to do
Will the sun shine again?
Will you grace me with your presence again, oh Lord?
Will you carry me to your still waters?
Will you guide this lost and wayward heart?
Light has withdrawn
And left the soul to cave
To every thought and scheme
A false hope in death
A fake relief through a bloody release
An endless pit
Downward, downward, downward
With each breath, the next one fails
Stuck in this daze
A nightmare with a powerful grip
Please forgive me
For I have sinned
I have left your steady hand
To dwell in the darkness
I call upon the Cross
The beautiful, wonderful Cross
The pure and holy blood of the Lamb
Oh Lord
In this time of need
Please save me
I am…
…
…
…
Lost
I try and only further push you away
I’m in quicksand
Sinking far too fast
Oh Lord, my rock
Please save me.
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