I’ve traveled to the edge of fear
Where hope seems lost
Joy turns to sorrow
And life seems like death…
The tug to step over was so strong
But a hand reached out,
Pulling my soul out from these depths
The hand of the Father
Who found me
And saved me
Long ago
He walked each step down this path
Hurting with every single one
Wishing I would just look around
And see Him standing there
With a lamp lighting the way home
Where supper was ready
Warm clothes were set out
A cozy fire to curl up by
And a pillow to lay my weary head on
“Lord, I’m sorry I have brought you this far
For your glory deserves holiness
Not this stain you have received
But you oh Lord find something in me
A relationship to be had.
Why you continue to pursue me,
An imperfect being,
I will never know.
Why you would give up your own,
I cannot fathom.
Why you suffered,
I cannot understand.
Why you took on shame,
I cannot grasp.
Why you took my stain,
Is a mystery.
Yet you have done it all
Out of your love for me.
When the darkness was all around
You were there
Lighting my every way
I can see it now
You never left my side,
I just never looked to see your presence
You take me on journeys,
Both joyful and hard,
My life is not about me,
Only you:
For your love to shine like the brightest star
For your hope to break through every cloud
For your joy to cover all sadness
For your glory to shake all around
You are God and I am not
You are good,
Both in the light and in the gray
Whatever brings you glory,
Lord, I will do it
Whether joy or pain, I will walk in it
I can say this now,
But Lord…
Give me strength to live this out”
“You don’t belong there”
A voice comes from the shadows
“Don’t listen to that other man
He does not know you
He does not want you
And in the time of need,
He will be gone.
Come on back…”
“My child,
He seeks to deceive you,”
The Father cries out
“For my love for you continues on
I will walk this journey with you
I will connect your broken pieces
And make you new
Believe in me.”
Here I stand
At the edge of faith and fear
The choice is mine
To step out upon the water of faith
Or return to the land of fear once more
With a single step I’m gone
Into the water away from the shore,
The foundation I’ve known
Where shackles lined the way
The water is daunting
So long and so wide
I have no vest
I have no boat
To save me now
Faith is my guide
Faith has overcome the fear
I cannot deny the call of the Father
Calling me on
Away from that foundation I have known far too long
I will die following this call
Yet I choose this path
Because He is enough now
I’ve found my end
And His beginning.